The 鈥渆motional fatigue鈥 Nienke Middleton feels ahead of the coronial inquiry into her daughter Olivia Podmore鈥檚 death more than three years ago is barely manageable.
But she has seen many of the suppressed documents due to be examined in the three-week inquest, starting at Hamilton District Court today, and the desire for the truth to be laid bare sustains her.
鈥淚 get fatigue from my job but this is a different type of fatigue. It鈥檚 like none other. It鈥檚 just taxing. It affects your sleep. It affects your entire life,鈥 Nienke says.
鈥淚鈥檝e had to take a whole month off work. Financially it鈥檚 such a big dent but we鈥檝e just felt we鈥檙e so strongly convicted that we just have to do it for Livy and change.鈥
Podmore died the day after the Tokyo Olympics ended, on August 9, 2021, after the track cyclist failed to qualify for that event following a tortuous Covid-19-interrupted selection process.
The then 24-year-old had competed in the 2016 Rio Games but was drawn into numerous controversies behind the scenes of Cycling NZ (CNZ)in the years that followed.
The ramifications of Podmore鈥檚 death led to a 2022 independent review, by KC Mike Heron and Professor Sarah Leberman, that handed down damning findings about a CNZ culture that 鈥減rioritises medals over wellbeing鈥.
But the terms of reference for that immediate review were to strictly focus only on the broad cultural issues of that national sporting body - despite them being instigated by Podmore鈥檚 death.
It鈥檚 only now that answers that specifically relate to Podmore鈥檚 treatment by coaches, administrators and medical professionals at CNZ can be asked in court.
鈥淚t鈥檚 just a clever play on words to take the spotlight off Olivia. It was convenient to use that. But the whole [2022 Heron] report is about Olivia basically,鈥 Nienke鈥檚 husband Chris Middleton says.
鈥淚f the [coronial] inquest allows for all the information to be shared ... everything will fall into place.鈥
Cyclist Oliva Podmore (inset), her mother Nienke Middleton (left), and Nienke's husband Chris Middleton (right) in Hagley Park. Photo / Joe Allison
Coroner Louella Dunn will oversee the inquest. In formal terms, Coroners conduct inquests to determine the cause and circumstances of death and identify ways to prevent similar deaths in the future.
It has been widely reported that Podmore died in a suspected suicide at the home she was flatting at in Cambridge. But the medical treatment and duty of care provided to the then 24-year-old athlete from CNZ in the months and years leading up to that have never been officially investigated.
About 30 witnesses will appear at the inquest, including Nienke and Chris, who will be representing themselves without legal counsel.
鈥淚鈥檝e got to be the lawyer, by default,鈥 Chris said. 鈥淚t was probably going to be another $150,000, so we made the fairly simple choice that we鈥檒l do it ourselves.鈥
The Middletons have already undertaken an extended legal battle to obtain Podmore鈥檚 medical records from High Performance Sport NZ (HPSNZ), costing them tens of thousands of dollars.
More than 1000 medical documents were suppressed ahead of the coronial inquiry, the Middletons say.
Chris said the documents, which they finally obtained in late 2022, made for disturbing reading.
鈥淭here鈥檚 been an awful lot of noise coming out of [HPSNZ]. They鈥檝e just fought absolutely everything pre-inquest, everything suppressed ... God, it鈥檚 just been relentless,鈥 he said.
鈥淭here鈥檒l be a lot of nervous people there I would think.鈥
Nienke added: 鈥淲e鈥檝e basically had to kick and scream for everything.鈥
Podmore鈥檚 father, Phil, and brother, Mitchell, both of whom have never publicly spoken about the death, will be represented by barrister Hamish Evans at the inquest.
Olivia Podmore (left) with her mother Nienke Middleton (right). Photo / Supplied
There are a number of non-publication orders for the names of health professionals who worked within the HPSNZ system, as well as a CNZ staff member.
HPSNZ, CNZ and several other witnesses sought non-publication orders through Kings Counsel. All up, there will be four KCs at the inquest - something that riles Chris , given the legal expenses the family has personally endured over several years.
Other notable witnesses at the inquest include friend and two time Olympic gold medalist Eric Murray, and Podmore鈥檚 housemate at the time and close friend Andrew McLean. This was the residence where Olivia died on the outskirts of Cambridge.
Both Murray and McLean were with Podmore the weekend before she died, skiing in Queenstown.
Among the coaches speaking at the coronial inquiry will be former CNZ lead track sprint coach Rene Wolff and CNZ high performance director Martin Barras, as well as the chief executive at the time Jacques Landry.
All three men resigned from their roles in the six months following Podmore鈥檚 death.
Sport NZ chief executive Raelene Castle will also appear as a witness.
鈥淲e would like to extend our sympathies to the family and friends of Olivia Podmore. HPSNZ appreciates that the coronial inquest will be a very difficult time for them,鈥 Castle said in a statement.
鈥淚t may also be a difficult time for those who worked closely with Olivia within the high performance system and HPSNZ will be providing support if and when needed.
鈥淎thlete wellbeing is one of the three key focuses of the HPSNZ strategy, and a lot of new initiatives, updated policies and compulsory training have been introduced across the high performance system over the last four years. We are all continuously learning, and the coronial inquiry will be an important next step in the process, as we work to ensure that high performance sport is a place where all athletes can thrive and succeed.鈥
Raelene Castle, head of high Performance Sport NZ (left), and Jacques Landry, former chief executive of Cycling New Zealand (right) at a press conference at the Cambridge Velodrome regarding the death of Olivia Podmore in 2021. Photo / Mike Scott
In 2021, the Herald exposed that Podmore had been caught up in a number of controversies throughout her time with CNZ.
In her final social media post, hours before she died, Podmore referenced a 鈥渃over-up鈥 at CNZ.
In 2016, Podmore unwittingly exposed an intimate relationship between a CNZ teammate and a coach after she reported the athlete had not returned home to their hotel after a night out during a training camp in Bordeaux, six weeks out from the Rio Olympics.
The fallout from this athlete-coach relationship led to another 2018 independent review, also by Mike Heron KC.
In the week after her death, the Herald revealed that Podmore was an athlete cited in the 2018 Heron review that had been pressured to lie by CNZ.
From reports of those close to Podmore, during the next two years within Cycling NZ following the 2016 Rio Olympics and leading up to 2018 Heron investigation, Podmore was marginalised within the Cambridge training environment.
Cycling NZ sprint team partners Natasha Hansen (left) and Olivia Podmore (right). Photo / Photosport
At the end of 2018, Podmore was paid a $20,000-plus sporting grant for welfare reasons several involved with CNZ and close to her described as questionable.
鈥淗ush money, we used to laugh about it and call it hush money, and she was like, 鈥榃ell yeah, pretty much鈥.Of course man, what else would you f***ing give a discretionary thing for. Honestly, it鈥檚 the same in any other sport that you don鈥檛 give away PEGs funding for no reason,鈥 Murray told the Herald in 2021.
The Herald has also reported the personal challenges Podmore faced in the last year of her life, after she was told in August 2020 she would not be selected for the Tokyo Olympics. Podmore was using drugs recreationally during this time, and receiving psychological help.
Many fellow CNZ athletes felt Podmore was unfairly treated during selection for those Olympics. A legal dispute around selection lodged by another CNZ athlete close to Podmore complicated matters further.
Many CNZ athletes the Herald spoke to in 2021 were highly critical of the methods and culture created by Barras, who oversaw the decision to not select Podmore for the Tokyo Games.
The Middletons hope the three-week inquiry will be an opportunity expose many of these incidents in greater detail.
鈥淲e鈥檒l be there every day, absolutely. We don鈥檛 want to miss a thing,鈥 Nienke said.
鈥淚t鈥檚 a big build-up. We鈥檙e just looking forward to going through the process and hopefully some good outcomes for everyone and for the future. It鈥檚 so hard because we can鈥檛 say [much], we鈥檙e not allowed. It鈥檚 been a real eye-opener [looking at the suppressed docs].
鈥淚鈥檓 optimistic [the truth will come out]. It will be a relief for the truth to come out but all we keep saying is we just want actually proper positive change. Not smoke and mirrors and a good yarn about the change.鈥
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