A Kiwi fighting on the front line in Ukraine has reportedly been killed in action, while the mother of the veteran soldier known as 鈥淭urtle鈥 has spoken of her fears for her son鈥檚 life after daily contact suddenly stopped.
Ngaire Te Tai told the聽贬别谤补濒诲听she was holding out hope that her son Kane, 38, was alive but unable to make contact.
Her fears are shared by those in the veterans鈥 community even as one of the last messages sent by Kane Te Tai spoke of returning home.
MFat said tonight it was aware of reports of a New Zealander鈥檚 death in Ukraine but those reports were yet to be officially verified.
Kane Te Tai, who has a 12-year-old daughter, was in regular contact on social media with a wide circle of friends and his absence through Monday and today led to concerns.
Ngaire Te Tai said: 鈥淚鈥檓 hoping it is not true. I have that hope. He didn鈥檛 prepare me for how this might turn out.鈥
She said her son, raised in Beach Haven, had always been drawn to protect communities and stand up for 鈥漷he underdog鈥 - qualities that led him to Ukraine.
鈥淚 wasn鈥檛 very happy with it,鈥 she said of his decision to go. 鈥淏ut he鈥檚 a grown man and there鈥檚 nothing I could have done. His entire family tried to persuade him not to go. He鈥檚 a very complex fella, my son, but he鈥檚 always been very community spirited.鈥
Ngaire Te Tai said Kane had signed up for the NZ Army 鈥渟traight out of school鈥, with parents at his side through the preliminary recruiting process. 鈥淗e told his father and I - not the other way around. I hoped it would have worn off - but it didn鈥檛.鈥
In his years of service, her son had served in Afghanistan and elsewhere on peacekeeping duties.
鈥淗e came back a different person. He was there before the age of 21. He saw some things, I guess, and my son was a changed person.鈥
Kane Te Tai on the front lines in Ukraine. Photo / Supplied
Ngaire Te Tai said military-style toys were a feature in Kane鈥檚 childhood but when it came to joining the military - and the journey to Ukraine - 鈥渋t wasn鈥檛 about the war itself, it was about wanting to be of use鈥.
鈥淧eople serve the church, people serve the community. That was his community. He loved wh膩nau. He loved people. And he loved to help the underdog. My son was a good man ... he is a good man. I鈥檓 99 per cent sure he has passed but I have hope.鈥
Ngaire Te Tai said she heard from her son every day he was in Ukraine, unless it was impossible for him to make contact.
鈥淗e never held anything back from me. He told me how it is. What can you do? There鈥檚 nothing you can do.鈥
Former NZDF staff sergeant Aaron Wood was one of those whose concern for Kane Te Tai was constant during the time he was immersed in the war between Russia and Ukraine, one of the deadliest and most brutal of modern conflicts.
Both former NZDF soldiers, Te Tai and Wood had worked together to get the veterans鈥 support group No Duff operating.
In Wood鈥檚 last exchange with Te Tai, he sounded his mate out on helping with an academic project and asked if he intended to take a break from the fighting.
The message Wood received in response arrived on Sunday and read: 鈥淣ah bro, that鈥檚 enough war for me.
鈥淚 love this place, it鈥檚 like a playground where I get to do anything I want. But that鈥檚 the problem, isn鈥檛 it?
鈥淪o before the game gets me or before I just decide life here is too easy, maybe it鈥檚 time to start living my real life.
鈥淭his place is pure escapism. We are all trying to run from something. Mine is from having a real life, but the time is near. Gotta put away the toys and start to build while I can.鈥
Wood passed on Te Tai鈥檚 message as an example of the myriad of post-service issues with which veterans contend, knowing doing so would have his mate鈥檚 support.
鈥淗e knew he was f***ed up. He knew he was missing something and he went over there to find it.鈥
The nature of the conflict was brutal and unforgiving, he said, with word that Te Tai fell when Russians stormed the trench he was involved in holding.
Former defence minister Ron Mark met Te Tai during a trip to Ukraine last year and described him as 鈥渁 good bugger鈥 to whom he would speak a couple of times a week.
He said Te Tai had carried out a favour for him recently 鈥渨hich I believe to this day saved another man鈥檚 life鈥. He wouldn鈥檛 say what it was but that it was an example of Te Tai knowing 鈥渢he right thing to do鈥.
There was speculation among the veteran community that Russians had placed a bounty on Te Tai after he featured in an article in聽The New Yorker聽and in other high-profile media slots.
Mark said it would not have been unusual for Te Tai鈥檚 social media and media appearances to have been noted by Russian authorities. Local media reporting would likely have had a similar focus for the Russian Embassy in Wellington.
He said Te Tai 鈥渘ever did anything with media without permission of command鈥 but putting himself out there carried risks and 鈥渢he downside is pretty personal鈥.
Kane Te Tai, pictured before he travelled to Ukraine. Photo / Supplied
鈥淗e鈥檚 one of those Kiwis who knew something was wrong and wanted to do something about it. He said it was the best job he ever had.鈥
Te Tai鈥檚 last Facebook post carried exactly those words - 鈥渂est job I ever had鈥 - alongside a photograph in which he was holding an automatic rifle while wearing a body armour vest carrying the New Zealand flag.
Mark said some among the veteran community were drawn to places of conflict with the motivation often being the same as that which drew them into service with the NZ Defence Force.
鈥淭he desire to serve the greater good never goes away. Some act on it. Soldiers, service personnel - whether on a P3 [aircraft] or a frigate or driving an armoured vehicle - this is what they see as their purpose in life.鈥
Mark was among a cohort of New Zealanders who had pushed to build bonds and supply aid to Ukraine. It was in this context he met with Te Tai in Ukraine.
鈥淓very one of us who goes there knows what the outcome could be.鈥
An MFAT spokesperson said it was aware of reports of the death of a New Zealander in Ukraine.
鈥淭hese reports have not been able to be officially verified at this time. For privacy reasons, no further information will be provided.鈥
Te Tai was code-named 鈥淭urtle鈥 in Ukraine, where he arrived in April last year. His service there first saw him training others to fight before he headed to the front lines as a member of a secretive reconnaissance unit in the country鈥檚 east.
He fought in the same attack on a Russian trench in which New Zealander Dominic Abelen was killed.
A week ago, footage emerged of Te Tai rescuing a Ukrainian friend held captive in a Russian bunker.
Video showed Te Tai entering the basement area where a man in battle fatigues could be seen face down on the ground. When turned over to be searched, he saw Te Tai and cried out: 鈥淣ew Zealand! New Zealand!鈥
鈥淚 recognised him,鈥 he wrote on social media. 鈥淚t was my friend who I thought was killed by the Russians when they invaded his house.
鈥淗e barely looked like the man I knew a couple of months ago. But it was the best thing to happen to me in this God-forsaken war.鈥
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